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[01 Dec 2008|01:32am] |
hooooly jesus shit. its been a little over a half of a year since i've even touched this bad boy and i cant even begin to start now. im tired, im broken in, i graduated from college 3rd in my class and im working retail. im painting again, im becoming part of the local long island art movement and im really scared that im letting myself believe that this is all the dawning of a new me (for the 800th time). i just hope this one sticks because i'm particularly happy now. im happy with me, not so happy the things that keep happening around me. i dont even know where i left off in here because i think before even with all the shit i've gone through and put myself through these last months ive grown in ways i cant even explain. my mom has become one of the founding members of the flanders historical society and is currently in the waiting period to find out whether or not she has breast cancer. my uncle (my dad's brother and last remaining relative on that side) passed away in august. i was in a relationship with someone i loved very, very much who broke my heart to pieces but i'm learning to stand, pieces mended or not, and face the day. im in limbo and it's really not all that bad.
i dont know what else to say, really. i hope you've all been well and ill see you... i dont know when.
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[05 Jan 2008|10:01am] |
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is it worth it, can you even hear me?
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